A New year?

I've been thinking about the new year. I can't tell you how many people have told me "I sure hope next year is a better one for you", and I don't resonate with that at all. My expectation is that the next year will continue a process begun in 2009 of slow acceptance, heart breaking memories that quietly transform into a broader picture of our lives with Tom: gratitude, continued love, and warmth, maybe less pain - perhaps more smiles than tears as we remember him.

My goal is to be patient with myself and just go through this process as it is. I don't expect next year to be better or worse. I have no idea how it will be. But I do expect that Tom and my experience of him will be a part of it and of every year to come.

I found these two quotes by Hal Borland that seemed meaningful to me:

"Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us."

“No winter lasts forever; no spring skips its turn.”


I love you all,
Me